I find that I can't even sit down and draw a monster, because I find myself going, "What is this for? A story? A movie? How does it work? Where did it come from?," and to a certain extent, such questioning is good. It's nice to have some secret lore, some depth to the characters you're creating, even if they'll never be drawn again. My mind, however, has just been overly critical, and not in a constructive manner. I'm not producing stories or even neat characters that are the part of some untold story. I'm getting stuck before the pen or pencil can even begin to flesh out something new.
A few years back, I tried looking at my old childhood drawings, done back in 1973 or 74, when I was 3 or 4, to see if I could recapture some of that youthful creativity. Did I succeed? Ehhhh....nope.
Black Beak! I'm not sure why I made him black in the new version. I can't be certain, but I'm pretty sure that the chest design was inspired by the Ultraman monster Gyango, or Gango.
Puffy Red Face! Not much to go off of in the original drawing. Pretty sure he has a train car in his mouth, a la Godzilla. The full color Photoshop drawing was done in a rush, but I think it's cute. It shows absolutely no sense of scale, though. May as well be 5' tall.
Recently, I went back in and tried a couple more re-draws:
Nightmare Monster: This headless- or faceless- creature appeared in a nightmare back in 1974. It appeared for only a second. I was standing in my doorway, looking out into the lit hall when it just flashed into existence. I woke up right away. So, I drew it the size of Godzilla, but it was actually about my size at the time, since I remember seeing it straight on. I drew it all wrong in the original- it was much more squat, like an H.P. Lovecraft moon beast- but I've re-drawn it here to match it.
The drawing on the left, above, is more like it was in the dream. It didn't move at all. It's skin was green, and the "cut off" area was red- but not from blood. The puffy, ringed look comes from these monsters from a Japanese series called Red Baron. They were these plant-like monsters that had hands that looked like the cut-off head, here. The fat T-Rex version on the right....well, I don't know where I was going with that.. Above it, cropped off, is a dream I had recently about my brother, Paul, but that's another story.
My nephew, 5 and a half years old, inspired by my brother, Paul, has been drawing monsters. Here, though, is one he drew after seeing my drawings of the yokai Dodomeki and Hyakume:
And here is his version:
So, that was a child's interpretation of my interpretation of a Japanese Yokai. Naturally, I had to do MY interpretation of the interpretation of my original interpretation:
It kind of has the body of a horned toad. The way I drew it, this is a top view, and it lies on it's belly, like a horned toad. Upon reconsideration, I doubt that that was what my nephew intended.
Finally, we have Gearis. An original creation by my nephew- and my version, based on his drawing:
I think I should have drawn the legs to be more like his. A friend saw this and, from the thumbnail, thought that Gearis was holding a saxophone in one hand.
Ok, I have to tell you because it's weird (premise: it's Saturday and I have plenty of free time): at first, I was reading "Yet Another Fantasy Gamer Comic" and there was a Penanggalan, so I searched more about it on Wikipedia and one of the references was Agony a Go-Go. From there (or searching your name on Google because I wanted to see more of your ideas, I don't remember) I stumbled upon NYCGoth and your blogs. It was like a trip through two decades.
ReplyDeleteI like your creativity and the works of you and your brother. Your style would be perfect for graphic novels or graphic collections. Keep up the good work!
Ps: yes, probably AaGG would be better as your personal site, since it's not that easy finding your drawings on the web (and that site is kinda dead, sadly).
Honestly, you drew better when you were 4
ReplyDelete...than I draw today.
feeling very inspired right now. thanks.
Okay, I am VERY late in responding to these comments- I thought this was set up to notify me if someone left a comment, but I guess not.
ReplyDeleteThank you both for your comments!
In the 90's, there was almost nothing about the Penanggalan on the internet, aside from it's entry in AD&D's Fiend Folio and a casual mention on various "vampire encyclopedia" pages. I had only one book that went into a bit more detail about the legend, but even that was lacking. When I created Agony a Go-Go, I had always wanted to do something with the creature, so I embellished her backstory quite a bit.
It wasn't long after that that I started seeing my drawings and MISinformation appearing on other sites- these vampire/folklore encyclopedia pages and mythology websites. I would write to these people saying that I made a lot of it up, but would never hear back. Today,my Penanggalan page(which is still referenced by Wikipedia) - http://www.agonyagogo.com/penina.html - is set up in white and red text. The white text (got the idea from Penn and Teller) comes from research, while the red text is what I've added.
AaGG is so desperately in need of an overhaul! I think it'll just be a site of monsters and creepy drawings. Big surprise.
Nirlix- I wish my creative mind was as free and untethered from this need to be realistic as it was when I was 4.